Growing up solo has changed my whole life.
I grew up with two other women and they were always looking after me, always watching me, being the adults and just being nice to me.
They had no sense of humour and they never complained.
Growing up with a lot of friends, they were very caring and they loved me.
My life was just full of fun.
Growing into my 20s and 30s I realised that this is the most important thing in my life and I didn’t want to be lonely or unhappy.
My boyfriend was still my boyfriend and I couldn’t live without him.
So I realised I would have to grow up solo and be a person without a partner.
I became more aware of my body and my sexuality and started to feel like I was different and that I had to accept myself and the world around me.
Growing Up Naked, my first novel, is a story about growing up naked and learning to accept that nakedness is normal.
I didnít want to dress up, I just felt like I didn´t want anyone to see me naked.
The first time I went to a party naked, I thought it was weird because I was so young and everyone was naked.
I got so nervous that I felt like crying.
I was afraid that someone would notice me naked, so I hid in a cupboard under the stairs and got myself a towel.
It was the first time in my whole adult life that I went home without my clothes on.
But I had a lot to learn about that and I learned that there is nothing wrong with a naked body.
I learnt that it doesn´t mean you can´t love your body.
The book, which I had already written a year before, was about how I wanted to become a better person, learn about myself, grow as a person and make friends.
I wanted my story to be more of a story of survival and to help other people live in the same way as I did.
In the book, I explain how the people who helped me through all these years and were the best in my eyes were the people I grew close to.
The characters in the book are all friends and family.
I donít write about myself but I have my friends and they help me through difficult times.
They are my lifeline.
They’re like my family, they are always there.
Growingup naked was a real turning point in my entire life.
It changed my way of thinking and it helped me grow as an artist and writer.
I have become more aware about my body, my sexuality, my relationships and my life.
In one of my final interviews, I had this huge question and it was really about the relationship between the nakedness of the body and the sexuality of the soul.
I couldnít say it in the film, because I knew the answer would hurt people.
So instead I asked, “How can you see yourself in that?”
And I have to tell you, it wasnít easy.
The truth is I had two girlfriends before I grew into a nudist and one of them died a little while ago.
She was a very beautiful person and she loved me very much, but she died.
I never really spoke about it.
When I went into the studio, I asked my mother if she had any idea what I was asking.
I told her I was really worried.
I had never seen the film and I asked her, “Do you know what Iím talking about?”
She told me, “I know what you mean, but you need to watch it because it might help you.”
She told us it is important to see the truth and not just what you think.
In Growing Up Nude, I tell the story of growing up in a very strange and weird world where the naked bodies of many people and some of the naked people are considered very important.
When you live in a society where people have no right to have their bodies taken care of, and when your bodies are taken away from you, you need someone to support you and be there for you.
You need someone who will tell you what is happening and to look after you.
In a few weeks, I will go to Australia and meet with some of my best friends in the nudist community.
We are going to meet up and have a drink, talk about our experiences and how we can help each other.
In this way, I have the opportunity to learn more about nudism, the art of nakedness, the experience of growing naked, and how it is a very special and beautiful thing.
GrowingUpNude is available on Amazon and at the RTE Store.
The film was released on Amazon UK, RTE Ireland, RTV Wales, RIT and RTE South Africa.
It is also available in the RFI UK catalogue.